I did not write what's going on in my life from many posts...part reason for that is my inherent laziness, but the main reason was that there were many changes in my personal life which i cannot blog about but which happened for good. The changes made me question myself and the direction in which i was going in and got a reality check on myself.
well alot on philosophy... October was the fulcrum about which my life has taken a sharp turn and thanks to that now iam in a different position all together. Destiny plays hide and seek with us and the thing which we curse may infact be a boon in disguise. It happened to me many a time and i always just laugh about my foolishness. It happened to me once again and here i am amused and laughing again...
November starting i had a big discussion with my GL, PL and couple of HRs who came to sort out a thing which i have escalated...and after a hour long discussion they finally agreed to solve my problem and the next day i was on bench wondering where i was going and what my future might be...
a lot has happened in november to march and the D-day was on March 6th...it was Maha Shivaraathri and i went to temple nearby my house at around 10:30 in the night...met my friend after a looong time and had a chat with him till mid night and then broke my fasting at around 11 pm in the night...it was first time in my life to fast for such a long time without even taking a sip of water.
From Jan 31 there was this one chore which was added to my itenery...checking my mail every morning first thing...so coming back...after i got ready to sleep i thought of checking my mail since it was already 1:00 AM in the morning. Then there was a mail which i was waiting for 1 month and for which i worked continously for long months....
Sub:Carnegie Mellon University Application Status
My heart skipped a beat as he did not mention anything in that mail but just said...
Dear Inder Sen,
Your application for admission to Carnegie Mellon University has been reviewed.
Please login to the online application to view your application status.
Thank you once again for applying to Carnegie Mellon.
Sincerely,
The Office of Admissions
H. John Heinz III School of Public Policy and Management
Graduate Programs in Information Systems Management
I just dont remember what was going through when i clicked and logged in my online application form and scrolled down...i could only find another link to the final result of my application...that moment was like for an eternity all the thoughts which were suppressed once came to my mind...Carnegie Mellon is ranked first in the US for Information Systems Management and many suggested that i should apply for more than one universities and CMU should only be my ambitious application. But I was determined to do my MIS in CMU..it not CMU i would wait for one more year or go for something much better than CMU (which was not the case as its the only one which i had applied to). What will happen if i dont get the admission and what will happen to my confidence which i showed to all the naysayers.
Amidst all these thoughts the page finally opened and i was just gazing through all the form but couldnot understand any....then i calmed down myself and read from beginning...
Dear Inder Sen,
On behalf of the Admission Selection Committee, it is my great pleasure to offer you admission to Carnegie Mellon University's Master of Information Systems Management program. You have been selected to enroll in the MISM 16-month track beginning in August 2008. As you may know, admission to Carnegie Mellon is very selective due to our high admissions standards, the significant number of talented students who apply, and limited class size. You have been chosen as a result of your notable accomplishments, both academic and non-academic, and we sincerely hope you will accept our offer of admission. Please respond to our offer of admission by....
thats it...i found myself punching the air and shouting in the middle of the night...
My months of my hard work has bore the fruits and i was much happy not only coz i got the admit but i could prove myself what i can really do....circumstances sapped my energy and my confidence to do what i want... i totally forgot what its like to achieve something which others say impossible.
But i could not just enjoy the moment then and there as all this preparation and hard work....was done without any knowledge of my family....so it was an arduous task to first tell them about this....
I was totally confident that after all this come what may i will be doing my MISM @ CMU in this fall 2008...and nothing can stop me from that...but destiny was laughing at my confidence and it indeed had the last laugh....why?.... because i am now in Sweden for next 6-9 months and not going to CMU...not for this fall atleast... i would blog abt that in my next post...